I'm Already Better Than Trump And So Are You - Control Over My Feelings Doesn't Equate His Spiritual Growth, Undo His Harm, Or Bring Back the Dead

 "If you wish ill on Trump now that he has coronavirus, you're no better than he is." 

I am a proponent of love and compassion and interconnectedness and so much "liberal snowflake, socialist, hippy-dippy-ness", but let me tell you why the above statement irks me. 

1. This is a demand that I feel a certain way, or that my emotions are not valid. 
2. This expects me to look past the havoc that he has caused and wish him things he refused other people.
3. This somehow supposes that if we give him compassion, he'll change his ways and become better by our example. 
4. Our "respectability politics" do NOT bring about justice or hold him accountable for his actions.
5. I AM better than him, and you most likely are too. Here are a few reasons why, in no particular order.
1. Have you ever created a fake university to swindle people out of money?
2. Have you paid for billboards calling for the death of innocent black teenagers?
3. Have you ever skipped out on paying taxes but ascended to the highest office where taxpayers pay for your housing, meals, health care, transportation, protection, golf trips, your EVERYTHING?
4. Have you raped children at parties that supported sex trafficking and sex trafficking of minors?
5. Have you raped or sexually assaulted women? Have you bragged about it?
6. Have you enacted/maintained policies that imprison legally-asylum-seeking migrants, denying them of basic human rights, health care, legal rights, causing some to die, be sexually assaulted or have sterilization operations on their reproductive organs without their knowledge/consent aka have you approved acts of genocide?
7. Have you engaged in acts of warfare or commanded the use of weapons, bombs, drone-bombs etc to kill/maim other people?
8. Have you lied 20,000+ times while President?
9. Have you encouraged hate, fear-mongering and divisiveness?
10. Have you been unable to condemn white supremacy?
11. Have you unfairly appointed unworthy financial donors or family members to positions of power that are a conflict of interest to the office and the American people?
12. Have you mocked or refused a simple scientific concept of facial covering that could have saved lives or saved people from illness at the very least, including everyone in contact with you?
13. Have you mocked disabled people, captured soldiers, dead soldiers and their families, created schoolyard-bully level nicknames for your political opponents, been a general asshole?
14. Have you cheated on multiple wives, sometimes while they were pregnant with your offspring? (That might hit home for some people...)
15. Have you [insert any of Trump's known wrongdoing's here]?
16. Have you [insert any of Trump's unknown wrongdoings here]?

The frustration I feel with being told that I am required to feel or behave a certain way is directly related to the understanding that Trump HAS NOT faced justice for any of the above actions and he WILL NOT face justice as we know it on this earth before he dies. 

The suffering he has caused others sits there in the swamp of his life, festering and emboldening his supporters who see that the rich, white/orange man can be as corrupt as hell because 

1. he has lawyers/wealth/fame/whiteness
2. his opponents are too worried about being "respectable" and "nice" and "not speaking ill of the ill".

Trumpers want that immunity too and act is if by supporting him, some of that will rub off on them, allowing them to get away with the awful things some of them do.... lynching, shooting, assaulting, harassing non-Trump supporters, corrupting and deforming the law, corrupt policing, corrupting the legal system in general. 

Yes, we are ALL CONNECTED. Yes, what we do and say affects other people. But I do not have to mentally or emotionally protect a man and his ilk that support the murder and destruction of their opponents and other people. I know that has a bearing on my own spiritual growth, but if that's the most hurt I cause, I can deal with that. They are playing a different game, using different philosophies and my sympathy or 'holy/enlightened outlook' would not change that.

I cannot forget so quickly what he has done. I cannot just put my hands together in prayer for someone who has an ego so large, it's a wonder the planet doesn't plummet through the solar system at the weight of it. 

When some people are wishing him ill, or aren't saddened or concerned for him, they are likely 

1. responding to the knowledge that justice fails us, 
2. aware that even if he suffers for this illness, he won't have even experienced a modicum of the pain he has caused others, 
3. aware that he had full knowledge and didn't act on it to help the people of this country.
4. aware he won't change.
5. aware there is more to this existence than him.

Trump doesn't give a shit about any of us, and if you haven't figured it out, he never will. Seventy-four years on this planet and he has never reached a spiritual level of giving a shit about anyone outside of how they can help him. Even if you sat him in a room with the highest spiritual gurus for a month, he would likely be unable to step outside of himself for a moment to comprehend what they say. 

He is the sludge in the hierarchy of spiritual development and we have all enabled that. Every person that didn't hold him accountable from birth to now, every person that was paid off, every person that shrugged it off has something to do with his ascension and our own demise as people. 

I understand the calling to a higher spiritual level when it comes to how we treat those in opposition but be honest: HE DOESN'T CARE AND HE ISN'T PLAYING THAT GAME WITH YOU.

Despite that awful truth, do the goodness in the world where you can. Allow yourself to grow and enhance your outlook. Work lovingly with others when you can. And know that my thoughts about that man is NOT your adversary to a better world with higher standards. He is. I'm not wasting my energy on giving him good vibes. I have better shit to do with my energy than focus on someone who doesn't care if I die. (Despite the time spent on my lengthy rant here.)

And unless he accomplishes that .00000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000001% freakish possibility of spiritual growth and acceptance of responsibility for his actions, I will hold him accountable for his actions and I will hold the justice system accountable for doing their job, knowing they won't and I'll be working for MY version of this world that doesn't permit people like him to do what they do, nor water it down with unwarranted compassion at his inevitable illness. 

So, I'm gonna feel how I'm gonna feel, because the destruction he's caused is real. But he is not my world. He is a barrier to it. He is someone I won't reach and I'm not gonna try. I have more chance of encouraging humanity in the people in my small town flying Trump flags. Yet that's not my aim either. I'm not holding my breath. I'm just living my life, keeping to myself for safety, hoping to support those whose lives are threatened by Trump and his "patriots".

People say they are sick of "politics". Politics is an aspect of how we interact with each other and create and maintain systems of power or progress. Politics is when we either let the corrupt elite get what they want or call out the systems of injustice, so if you're sick of "politics", you may be sick of hearing about injustices you don't think affect you. But it does, because we're all interconnected. So, unless real change happens and people help other people knowing they help themselves, politics isn't going away. I just don't mind if Trump does. Trump and all he stands for can exit and never come back. THAT is the end result aim of spiritual enlightenment that we so badly want. And HOW that happens, whether through succumbing to illness, or death we all meet someday, or mass spiritual enlightenment of him and his ilk, that's not up to me. 

What IS up to me, is how I deal with my feelings and how I work for what I want. So, no, I won't be sidelined by "being respectable" when his atrocious life's work has not changed because he caught an illness he ridiculed. I'd rather be responsible for disgust at a person who's done what he has, than be responsible for what he's done. 

I don't envy him. I don't support him. I don't want him or want he represents in this world to have the power it does. And I don't think you do either. And you know my disgust with him is NOT worse than what he's done. You just acknowledge you can reach my humanity easier than you can his. And THAT'S why you plead for me to be "better than they are". You/we want any bit of control over this crazy world that we can muster. Well, I already know I am better than he is, and that you most probably are too. Our "being better" doesn't change who he is and it doesn't bring him to justice and it doesn't bring back the dead and undo the hurt he caused. 

So, yeah. That's enough of that.